Random musings from a chaotic mind...

*This is random and all over the place, with no clear flow or concept, I'm just in the mood to write.*

I'll forget what kind of car I drive and what brand of cigarettes I smoke, but without fail I will remember the words to all my favourite songs, even if I haven't heard it in years.

I have the habit of wanting all the things that I cannot have and never wanting the things I can have.

There is apparently only 1 man to every 5 women in this day and age. I'm so totally fucked.

I've never in my life been allergic to any kind of food, yet these days if I eat certain things I get so sick I just want to be shot.

I tend to come across so negative and depressed in my blog posts, yet I'm probably one of the most happy and positive people I know (well, bar the last few years, it's been a tough few years...)

If I could have any wish in the world right now, it would be that I am just completely healthy in all aspects of my body and I never get sick again, that would be wonderful. I'm talking weight, my back, my tummy, my skin, my hair, all of it. (not that I'm feral now, I just want it to all be better, just like most people.)

This year so far, I've read approximately 50 books. I have a big addiction to books. I sometimes wish I finished high school and went onto university to be an editor, that would have been the perfect job for me.

I do not regret any of the choices I made in life, for I would not be who I am today without them. I do wish sometimes that things would just be good, all the time, but I snap out of that pretty quickly, for how can you appreciate the good without having the bad to help you recognise it.

I look forward to the day that I have my own husband and children and home and can have everything the way I want it. I'm a total housewife and I love it.
I get exceedingly angry at women who scorn the ladies that make this sort of choice like me, make us feel like we are lesser or not feminists and how dare we destory everything that was built for us over the years.
The whole point is that women can make their own choices. I CHOOSE to want this and do this. This does not make me lesser, it does not make me weak. I want to love and protect my family, I want to feed them and be there for them and teach them all I know.
This includes blood and soul family.
My house will always be open.
There will always be food on my table for all.
There will always be laughter and music and books and magic in my home and this is what I choose.
The hearth is my right and I am strong in this right.

I have an addictive personality. At the moment my addiction is being fed by Candy Crush Saga, a game you can play on your phone and on Facebook. Someone help stop the madness!

I'm going to Soundwave this Sunday and I was given approval today to have Monday off, so I am going to party ridiculously hard.
I will be seeing Tomahawk, Bullet for My Valentine, Stone Sour, Slayer, A Perfect Circle, Linkin Park and Metallica. Boy oh boy I am giddy with excitement!
I unfortunately will be missing Sum41, Paramore, Garbage, Blink 182 and The Offspring, which totally sucks, but I had to pick which side and I'm a metal girl at heart
(I'm also an 80's freak and pretty much all genre type of music gal mixed together but Rock and Metal hold a special place).

I am restless and bored and wish I never had to work again because there are so many things I'd rather be doing with my time, like reading and doing my nails and cooking and creating and sleeping, oh my precious sleep... Alas, I am stuck in the rat race of life and have a while yet before I can leave it.

I find it amusing when I listen to people complain about how they've been working full time for 5 years for example and are so over it blah blah.
I've been working for 18 years.
From the age of 8 I was working in my parents shop, and I mean working. I didn't get pocket money, I had to work to get money to spend.
From 14 til 16 I was working for my parents, at the local supermarket and at a boutique shop in a massive shopping centre - while still at school full time.
I left school when I was 16 and went to work for my brother at his business full time and for my parents part time, as well as the boutique shop.
I left them all after a year when I was 17 and went to Greece.
I came back from Greece and went to work full time while studying and worked for my parents again.
I left that job when I was 18 and went to Tafe full time to study and continued to work for my parents.
Once I finished Tafe, I went to work again full time and still worked for my parents.
I kept having 2 jobs, one full time and for my parents until I was 22 years old and they sold their business off. It's now only for the last 4 years I've worked just the one job, full time.
(Let me be clear, when I say I worked for my parents after I came back from Greece, we're talking 6-10 5 nights a week, all I did was work.)
All this was happening while I moved out of home at 19 and wasn't driving, so had to train and bus it and get lifts and just basically run around like a headless chook.
I've worked my whole life and yet people whinge to me about working full time?
Oh darlings, you will get no sympathy out of me!

I think I'll leave it there, this is already long and random.
If you made it to the end, congratulations!
You survived the randomness.
Have a cookie! xoxo

Empathy.

em·pa·thy

/ˈɛmpəθi/ Show Spelled [em-puh-thee] Show IPA

noun

1.

the intellectual identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another.

 

(In simple terms, the ability to identify, understand and share the feelings of others.)

 

I was told once, a long time ago, that I have a gift, a power, an ability, a skill.

Omniscient Empathy.

The ability to have complete understanding and a flawless emotional connection with every person I meet in a matter of seconds due to my skills and experience.

 

I'm otherwise known as an Empath.

 

Now, whether you believe this stuff or not is really beside the point. Some people believe, some people don't.

 

Empathy is real. People being more in tune with Empathy is also real. Whether you believe that can then extend further into people being able to feel other's emotions, control them, heal them, well, that's your lesson to learn.

 

There are many websites out there that have different lists of what it means, how people are affected, etc etc. I've found this particular list quite interesting and pretty accurate for me - there are some on here that aren't but everybody is different and no one will follow lists completely.

 

This is one such list:

 

At A Glance: 30 Traits of an Empath

 1.     Knowing: Empaths just know stuff, without being told. It’s a knowing that goes way beyond intuition or gut feelings, even though that is how many would describe the knowing. The more attuned they are the stronger this gift becomes.
(People always ask me how did I know something, my standard response is that "I just do".)

2.     Being in public places can be overwhelming: Places like shopping malls, supermarkets or stadiums, where there are lots of people around, can fill the Empath with turbulently vexed emotions that are coming from others.
(I will be okay to a point, and then it'll be this overwhelming need to just get out. I get better as I get older but I used to struggle so much as a child, I hated going into shops, I'd tell my parents and sister I was allergic to clothes and people and wouldn't go in.)

 3.     Feeling others emotions and taking them on as your own: This is a huge one for Empaths. To some, they will feel emotions off those near by and with others they will feel emotions from those a vast distance away, or both. The more adept Empath will know if someone is having bad thoughts about them, even from a great distance.
(Even now, after years, I still find myself on occassion trying to seperate my feelings from someone else. I do really well when I'm not exhausted, but the more I am, the harder it is to do.)

 4.     Watching violence, cruelty or tragedy on the TV is unbearable: The more attuned an Empath becomes the worse it is and may make it so they eventually have to stop watching TV and reading newspapers altogether.
(This doesn't bother me as much as it used to, but some things really hit hard.)

 5.     You know when someone is not being honest: If a friend or a loved one is telling you lies you know it (although many Empaths try not to focus on this because knowing a loved one is lying can be painful). Or if someone is saying one thing but feeling/thinking another, you know.
(I always know if someone is bullshitting me, as my brother always said "You can't bullshit a bullshit artist", I try to avoid lying as much as possible and I can be quite gullible at times, I always want to believe people are telling me the truth, but it eventually comes out if they're not.)

 6.     Picking up physical symptoms off another: An Empath will almost always develop the ailments off another (colds, eye infections, body aches and pains), especially those who they’re closest to, somewhat like sympathy pains.
(I will always, without fail, pick up on my sisters headaches and migraines. It's a long-running "joke" in my family, I get a headache that isn't quite "right", like I'm having one but not, and it'll be my sister with it.)

 7.     Digestive disorders and lower back problems: The solar plexus chakra is based in the centre of the abdomen and it’s known as the seat of emotions. This is where Empaths feel the incoming emotion of another, which can weaken the area and eventually lead to anything from stomach ulcers to IBS (too many other conditions to list here). Lower back problems can develop from being ungrounded (amongst other things) and one, who has no knowledge of them being an Empath, will almost always be ungrounded.
(hahahahahaha story of my fucking life!)

 8.     Always looking out for the underdog: Anyone whose suffering, in emotional pain or being bullied draws an Empath’s attention and compassion.
(Always.)

 9.     Others will want to offload their problems on you, even strangers: An Empath can become a dumping ground for everyone else’s issues and problems, which, if they’re not careful can end up as their own.
(I've lost count the number of times random strangers have told me their whole life story, and I always have to fight that balance of taking problems on for my loved ones.)

 10.    Constant fatigue: Empaths often get drained of energy, either from energy vampires or just taking on too much from others, which even sleep will not cure. Many get diagnosed with ME.
(Always.)

 11.    Addictive personality: Alcohol, drugs, sex, are to name but a few addictions Empaths turn to, to block out the emotions of others. It can be a form of self protection in order to hide from someone or something (external emotions).
(Yep. I get hooked on most things.)

12.    Drawn to healing, holistic therapies and all things metaphysical: Although many Empaths would love to heal others, they can end up turning away from healing (even though they have a natural ability for it), after they’ve studied and qualified, because they take on too much from the one they are trying to heal. Especially if they are unaware of their empathy. Anything of a supernatural nature is of interest to Empaths and they don’t surprise or get shocked easily. Even at the revelation of what many others would consider unthinkable, for example, Empaths would have known the world was round when others believed it was flat.
(Spot on.)

 13.   Creative: From singing, dancing, acting, drawing or writing an Empath will have a strong creative streak and a vivid imagination.
(Yes, although I wish I could draw.)

 14.    Love of nature and animals: Being outdoors in nature is a must for Empaths and pets are an essential part of their life.
(3 dogs, a cat and a bird later, I still want more.)

 15.    Need for solitude: An Empath will go stir-crazy if they don’t get quiet time. This is even obvious in empathic children.
(It's not a want, it's a need.)

 16.    Gets bored or distracted easily if not stimulated: Work, school and home life has to be kept interesting for an Empath or they switch off from it and end up daydreaming or doodling.
(You'll often hear me say I'm bored, even when life is not boring!)

 17.   Finds it impossible to do things they don’t enjoy: As above. Feels like they are living a lie by doing so. To force an Empath to do something they dislike through guilt or labelling them as idle will only serve in making them unhappy. It’s for this reason many  Empaths get labelled as being lazy.
(Spot on. I'm really not that lazy, but my mother certainly thinks so.)

 18.   Strives for the truth: This becomes more prevalent when an Empath discovers his/her gifts and birthright. Anything untruthful feels plain wrong.
(Amen.)

 19.   Always looking for the answers and knowledge: To have unanswered questions can be frustrating for an Empath and they will endeavour to find an explanation. If they have a knowing about something they will look for confirmation. The downside to this is an information overload.
(It can be an overload but I LOVE it.)

 20.  Likes adventure, freedom and travel: Empaths are free spirits.
(I'm a true hippy at heart.)

 21.  Abhors clutter: It makes an Empath feel weighed down and blocks the flow of energy.
(It's true, but at the same time I'm a pack rat. I get to breaking point and de-clutter but it always builds back up.)

 22.  Loves to daydream: An Empath can stare into space for hours, in a world of their own and blissfully happy.
(Favourite past-time.)

 23.  Finds routine, rules or control, imprisoning: Anything that takes away their freedom is debilitating to an Empath even poisoning.
(Sometimes, but as I get older I make myself deal with it, structure and order is good when you're taking control.)

 24.  Prone to carry weight without necessarily overeating: The excess weight is a form of protection to stop the negative incoming energies having as much impact.
(Yep...)

 25.  Excellent listener: An Empath won’t talk about themselves much unless it’s to someone they really trust. They love to learn and know about others and genuinely care.
(That's why I always deflect questions off of me and get people to talk about themselves. With the people in my heart though, I tell them whatever they want to know.)

 26.  Intolerance to narcissism: Although kind and often very tolerant of others, Empaths do not like to be around overly egotistical people, who put themselves first and refuse to consider another’s feelings or points of view other than their own.
(Ooooh they shit me!)

 27.   The ability to feel the days of the week: An Empath will get the ‘Friday Feeling’ if they work Fridays or not. They pick up on how the collective are feeling. The first couple of days of a long, bank holiday weekend (Easter for example) can feel, to them, like the world is smiling, calm and relaxed. Sunday evenings, Mondays and Tuesdays, of a working week, have a very heavy feeling.
(I thought everyone had this?)

 28.   Will not choose to buy antiques, vintage or second-hand: Anything that’s been pre-owned carries the energy of the previous owner. An Empath will even prefer to have a brand new car or house (if they are in the financial situation to do so) with no residual energy.
(This isn't a problem for me for the most part, if someone has bad jo-jo on it I avoid it but otherwise it's fine.)

 29.   Sense the energy of food: Many Empaths don’t like to eat meat or poultry because they can feel the vibrations of the animal (especially if the animal suffered), even if they like the taste.
(It doesn't stop me, I LOVE meat.)

 30.   Can appear moody, shy, aloof, disconnected: Depending on how an Empath is feeling will depend on what face they show to the world. They can be prone to mood swings and if they’ve taken on too much negative will appear quiet and unsociable, even miserable. An empath detests having to pretend to be happy when they’re sad, this only adds to their load (makes working in the service industry, when it’s service with a smile, very challenging) and can make them feel like scuttling under a stone.
(Very much so but again, after years of practice, it's second nature now. It's a big problem sometimes, I am an extremely moody person on occassion, but it's all about the practice.)

If you can say yes to at least 10 of these traits (especially 1 to 10), you could very well be an Empath.

Empaths may carry many of the same traits but they/we are still individuals.  We can override or block certain traits and some traits will come and go over the years (strengthen or weaken) as life circumstances change. Once one has become aware of one’s birthright of being an Empath (this will normally happen when any, or all, of the above traits start screaming at you for attention), it is then we can find remedies to ease symptoms and perhaps discover what our true role in life is.



So the reason why I'm discussing this today is because, lately, it's been hard.
I'm so very tired, I'm on a new medication that's fucking with my hormones - which then fucks with your emotions, and my logical side is being worked overtime to try and control the emotions, that aren't my own.

I just want to be left alone, but at the same time I don't want to be. I want to keep the people in my life that give me relief and sactuary from the shit but I get moody and emotional with them and they don't deserve that.

It's all over the place.

It'll re-balance out, I'm very good at controlling this for the most part, but at times, when I struggle, I wish I could explain why. Until *I* can figure it out though, I don't know where to start.

So until then, I keep embracing the logic to control the emotional and keep striving for my balance.

Peace? Peace. I hate the word, as I hate hell, all Montagues, and thee.

Peace.

I love peace. I strive for peace.

I strive for people to surround me with the same ideals.
It's one thing to say it.
You need to show it.

Numerous conversations have been had just this morning.
It's one of those days.
Contemplative.

The general gist of conversation has been peace, balance, friendships, and the choices we make.
How things can change so drastically in spans of months, weeks, days.
How friendships come and go, and what that means.
How the people we choose to spend our lives with balance us, enlighten and enrich us, and what we are willing to do and not do.

I have, on occassion, been accused of being a "friend hopper" (yes my friends, we may leave high school but high school never leaves us!).

Now, the whole concept of being a friend hopper really pisses me off.
I, and so many others, understand and appreciate the reality that people cannot and do not live in each others pockets 24/7. Friends are allowed to have other friends, friends are allowed to go periods of time without having to talk, see each other, be part of their lives.

Now, don't get me wrong. Each and every one of my friends is part of my life regardless.

But please, balance people.

My "bff" and I have been friends for 20 years. We can go weeks without talking and know that, no matter what, we are just a call, a text, a visit away. There are no complications, EVER, there is no jealousy, resentment, no need for justification or exuses. It is what it is.

I find that with the people I make the choice to keep in my life, are fitting into the same pattern. This makes me exceedingly happy.
People need to understand this concept. They really do. This, is peace.
This is what it's all about.

A few people that are unable to understand this have slowly been let go of. People that are so needy and dependant on having attention and affection of anyone and everyone in their lives.

I am quite content to be left alone, even crave it at times.
People who are content in their own company is something that people in this world cannot even contemplate, let alone do.

It astounds me though, their behavour. The world won't end if someone isn't paying attention to you.
They think it will, but if anything, it's when you aren't looking for it and demanding it, you get it the most.
These people have to receive attention, good, bad or ugly, because if they have people talking about them, to them, they won't disappear.

But, we are not imaginary.

We are all very much here.

"You're no one until someone talks about you" is the mentality they seem to have.

That mentality is not peace, it is not enlightenment.
Happiness and peace gets thrown in the "too hard" basket.
What they don't seem to realise is that, when you embrace it, it makes everything that much better.

You can choose your mentality.

And whether it's easier or not, you embrace it and you go with it.
It comes as it comes.

You are never given more than you can handle.

Ever.

The people who shun that, think that it's all too hard, will keep having it thrown at them until they realise they can, and then it's done.

It's as simple and as difficult as that.

Peace.

Sticks and Stones...

"Sticks and Stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me."

We all know this saying, we've all used this at some point in our lives, for either ourselves or to remind the people around us.

What about when they do hurt though?
Words.
Words that people say to us, about us.
Hurtful words, bitchy words, just plain nasty words.

It can be numerous different things. They could say things about your physical attributes, your character, the choices you've made in life, etc.

I learnt a valuable lesson early in life that people who bitch and judge and critisise EVERYONE around them, they'll do the same thing to you too, even if they call you their best friend, soul sister.

I somehow seemed to forget that lesson in the last 6-12 months.

Thankfully, in some shitty way, I was reminded of it. That some people are just fucking douchebags and it's a sign of their character, not my own.

I'm a genuinely nice person. I care, a lot, I will always try to look at the good, play devil's advocate, find some way to make things okay for people, comfortable, welcomed. I generally will not say mean things about someone when it comes to their physical attributes, choices in life, etc.

I am human though (to an extent) and I have moments where I will rip into a person, but for that to happen my buttons will have to have been pushed.

My buttons are totally pushed right now.

At the end of the day though, something I know to be true and remind people of all the time:

"How others think of you is none of your business."

Just be careful of who you play with. I am a nice person, but I have no hesitation ripping shreds off when provoked.

Top 5 Songs

Music.

Music is what feelings sound like.

Music sooths my soul.

Music makes me so very happy.

It's hard to narrow down just a Top 5 when it comes to music (with a lot of things really), even now I find songs that I would throw on the list instead, but sometimes you just need to pick something and stick with it!

These songs below, they all have a deeper meaning for me. All of them - from the lyrics, the beat, the vibe and feeling they give me - this is what makes these songs so important to me.
Top 5 Songs

• 'Heaven Coming Down' by The Tea Party

(I cannot remember where or how I found this song, it's been years and years that I've known and loved it. This is the song I would specify as my favourite if I ever went on one of those game shows where you go with a partner and they need to know things about you.)

 

With nothing to do you'd waste away

Obscure in exile

They've witnessed the times

You've gone astray

Whose fault? now you're thinking...

Theres's nothing to prove

A message from the crowd

To the shore...

And it feels now

Just like heaven's coming down

Your soul shakes free

As its conscience hits the ground

So strange are the ways,

They all have changed

Still life it stays the same

A break from the past

Could make it last

Maybe just a little longer

There's nothing to prove

A message from the crowd

To the shore...

You surrender

Love under will

Rest assured you're adored

And it feels now

Just lie heaven's coming down

Your soul shakes free

As its conscience hits the ground

These signs, this fate

Takes a path you didn't choose

Stay Strong, Keep Faith

There is a change that's

Coming through

Hold on my love

Hold on...

• 'Don't You Forget About Me' by Simple Minds

(I first heard this song when I first watched 'The Breakfast Club' and I fell instantly in love with it. I could listen to this song every day for the rest of my life and never get sick of it.)

Hey, hey, hey, hey Ooh, oh

Won't you come see about me?

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts

Giving me everything inside and out

And love's strange so real in the dark

Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart

When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

Will you stand above me?

Look my way, never love me

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down

Will you recognize me?

Call my name or walk on by

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey Ooh, oh

Don't you try to pretend

It's my feeling, we'll win in the end

I won't harm you or touch your defenses

Vanity and security

Don't you forget about me

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it baby

Going to take you apart

I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

When you walk away

Or will you walk away?

Will you walk on by?

Come on, call my name

Will you call my name?

I say, la la la

When you walk on by

And you call my name

• 'I've Got to Break Free' by Queen

(Queen are my favourite band. I know every song off by heart and will belt them out with no hesitation. This one is one of my favourites of theirs, I've always felt connected to this song because I've always wanted to break free.)

I want to break free
I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
You're so self-satisfied I don't need you
I got to break free
God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen in love
I've fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it's for real
I've fallen in love, yeah
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love

It's strange but it's true (hey yea)
I can't get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh how I want to be free baby
Oh how I want to be free
Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I can't get used to living without, living without, living without you
by my side
I don't want to live alone, hey
God knows got to make it on my own
So baby can't you see
I've got to break free

I've got to break free
I want to break free, yeah

I want, I want, I want, I want to break free …

• 'Learning to Fly' by Pink Floyd

(I've listened to Pink Floyd for a very long time but there's this particular memory that will always stick with me. It was November 2003, pretty much around this time, and I had just left school, just turned 17 and was working full time for my brother. It was Melbourne Cup day so he sent me home early and I had time to kill so I went into this little hole in the wall shop on George St in the city, where they sold books and CD's etc. I picked up the Pink Floyd Album "Pulse" and went home and listened to it for hours. It was my first paycheck from a proper full time job outside of school and it was the first thing I brought. Pink Floyd will always hold a place in my heart.

Plus, I have always wanted to get "Earth-Bound Misfit" tattooed on me.)

Into the distance, a ribbon of black
Stretched to the point of no turning back
A flight of fancy on a windswept field
Standing alone my senses reeled
A fatal attraction is holding me fast,
How can I escape this irresistible grasp?

Can't keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted, just an earth-bound misfit, I

Ice is forming on the tips of my wings
Unheeded warnings, I thought, I thought of everything
No navigator to find my way home
Unladened, empty and turned to stone
A soul in tension -- that's learning to fly
Condition grounded but determined to try

Can't keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

Above the planet on a wing and a prayer,
My grubby halo, a vapour trail in the empty air,
Across the clouds I see my shadow fly
Out of the corner of my watering eye
A dream unthreatened by the morning light
Could blow this soul right through the roof of the night

There's no sensation to compare with this
Suspended animation, a state of bliss

Can't keep my mind from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

• 'Purple Rain' by Prince/'Kiss From a Rose' by Seal

(I've always been a big Prince fan and generally love all the songs equally but the lyrics to this one have always struck a cord with me.)

'Purple Rain' by Prince

I never meant to cause you any sorrow.
I never meant to cause you any pain.
I only wanted to one time see you laughing.
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain.

Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.

I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain.

I never wanted to be your weekend lover.
I only wanted to be some kind of friend.
Baby I could never steal you from another.
It's such a shame our friendship had to end.

Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.

I only wanted to see you underneath the purple rain.

Honey I know, I know, I know times are changing.
It's time we all reach out for something new,
That means you too.
You say you want a leader,
But you can't seem to make up your mind.
I think you better close it,
And let me guide you to the purple rain.

Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.

If you know what I'm singing about up here.
C'mon raise your hand.

Purple rain, purple rain.

I only want to see you, only want to see you.

(I first heard this song when I watched Batman - I LOVE Batman! - and I've always really really liked it. For a long time I wanted this song to be my wedding's first dance song, it might still be :} )

'Kiss From a Rose' by Seal

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.