Random musings from a chaotic mind...

*This is random and all over the place, with no clear flow or concept, I'm just in the mood to write.*

I'll forget what kind of car I drive and what brand of cigarettes I smoke, but without fail I will remember the words to all my favourite songs, even if I haven't heard it in years.

I have the habit of wanting all the things that I cannot have and never wanting the things I can have.

There is apparently only 1 man to every 5 women in this day and age. I'm so totally fucked.

I've never in my life been allergic to any kind of food, yet these days if I eat certain things I get so sick I just want to be shot.

I tend to come across so negative and depressed in my blog posts, yet I'm probably one of the most happy and positive people I know (well, bar the last few years, it's been a tough few years...)

If I could have any wish in the world right now, it would be that I am just completely healthy in all aspects of my body and I never get sick again, that would be wonderful. I'm talking weight, my back, my tummy, my skin, my hair, all of it. (not that I'm feral now, I just want it to all be better, just like most people.)

This year so far, I've read approximately 50 books. I have a big addiction to books. I sometimes wish I finished high school and went onto university to be an editor, that would have been the perfect job for me.

I do not regret any of the choices I made in life, for I would not be who I am today without them. I do wish sometimes that things would just be good, all the time, but I snap out of that pretty quickly, for how can you appreciate the good without having the bad to help you recognise it.

I look forward to the day that I have my own husband and children and home and can have everything the way I want it. I'm a total housewife and I love it.
I get exceedingly angry at women who scorn the ladies that make this sort of choice like me, make us feel like we are lesser or not feminists and how dare we destory everything that was built for us over the years.
The whole point is that women can make their own choices. I CHOOSE to want this and do this. This does not make me lesser, it does not make me weak. I want to love and protect my family, I want to feed them and be there for them and teach them all I know.
This includes blood and soul family.
My house will always be open.
There will always be food on my table for all.
There will always be laughter and music and books and magic in my home and this is what I choose.
The hearth is my right and I am strong in this right.

I have an addictive personality. At the moment my addiction is being fed by Candy Crush Saga, a game you can play on your phone and on Facebook. Someone help stop the madness!

I'm going to Soundwave this Sunday and I was given approval today to have Monday off, so I am going to party ridiculously hard.
I will be seeing Tomahawk, Bullet for My Valentine, Stone Sour, Slayer, A Perfect Circle, Linkin Park and Metallica. Boy oh boy I am giddy with excitement!
I unfortunately will be missing Sum41, Paramore, Garbage, Blink 182 and The Offspring, which totally sucks, but I had to pick which side and I'm a metal girl at heart
(I'm also an 80's freak and pretty much all genre type of music gal mixed together but Rock and Metal hold a special place).

I am restless and bored and wish I never had to work again because there are so many things I'd rather be doing with my time, like reading and doing my nails and cooking and creating and sleeping, oh my precious sleep... Alas, I am stuck in the rat race of life and have a while yet before I can leave it.

I find it amusing when I listen to people complain about how they've been working full time for 5 years for example and are so over it blah blah.
I've been working for 18 years.
From the age of 8 I was working in my parents shop, and I mean working. I didn't get pocket money, I had to work to get money to spend.
From 14 til 16 I was working for my parents, at the local supermarket and at a boutique shop in a massive shopping centre - while still at school full time.
I left school when I was 16 and went to work for my brother at his business full time and for my parents part time, as well as the boutique shop.
I left them all after a year when I was 17 and went to Greece.
I came back from Greece and went to work full time while studying and worked for my parents again.
I left that job when I was 18 and went to Tafe full time to study and continued to work for my parents.
Once I finished Tafe, I went to work again full time and still worked for my parents.
I kept having 2 jobs, one full time and for my parents until I was 22 years old and they sold their business off. It's now only for the last 4 years I've worked just the one job, full time.
(Let me be clear, when I say I worked for my parents after I came back from Greece, we're talking 6-10 5 nights a week, all I did was work.)
All this was happening while I moved out of home at 19 and wasn't driving, so had to train and bus it and get lifts and just basically run around like a headless chook.
I've worked my whole life and yet people whinge to me about working full time?
Oh darlings, you will get no sympathy out of me!

I think I'll leave it there, this is already long and random.
If you made it to the end, congratulations!
You survived the randomness.
Have a cookie! xoxo

Don't you, forget about me

Lately I've been forgetting a lot of things. It's been really worrying and stressing me out.

I just had this conversation with the lovely Eva and man she made me laugh, and most importantly, made me feel a lot better. I'm putting it here so I don't forget, I don't want to forget anymore.

So I guess I'm not losing my mind per say, more than I already have, it's nice having it confirmed by someone else though.

Below is our conversation and HERE is the best post (in my own "un-biased" opinion of course) she's written.

Eva

are you still thinking about your next tattoo
??
the dragon??

Connie

I'm always thinking of my next tattoos :)

but havent decided which is next

 Eva

which one hurt the most, and which one is your favourite?

Connie

haha

you always ask interesting things

My ankh hurt the most, oh boy

that was ridiculous

and my favourite is my phoenix

 Eva

which one on your ankle? 

Connie

haha no no

My Ankh

On my back :)

with the wings

It's an egyptian cross

 Eva

oooooooooh

i know that one

i thought for a second there was a tattoo that you had that i forgot about :|

Connie

I forgot what brand of cigarettes I smoked the other night

It's getting a little bit ridiculous.

Eva

oh dear :S

has that ever happened before?

 Connie

Dude, I forget everything.

It's just happening more and more now.

Eva

no meaning, something that you use everyday, forgetting the name of it.

Connie

My car (side note - the other day I completely forgot what kind of car I drive and had to ask Eva what it was...)

Eva

ah yeah

that one

Connie

I forget every morning whether or not I put deoderant on

Eva

oh thats normal

, Connie

I get out of the shower having forgotten I turned my light on

, Eva

i forget that ALLL the time!

:)

Connie

and I'm like "why the fk is my light on"

Eva

haha

but its what you do in the morning when you're not really awake

Connie

I'd think I was haunted but it's just me forgetting

Eva

thats acceptable

, Connie

haha fair enough

Sarah said the other day I seem to keep getting old people problems, like my back and my tummy

Eva

because i am a good friend, i am looking up 10 early signs of alzheimers.

Connie

why not the memory thing too!

Eva

you're safe, there is nothing wrong with you

Connie

hahahahahha

are you sure?

Eva

i am.

Connie

What are the 10 signs?

Eva

i will send you the list.

http://www.alz.org/national/documents/checklist_10signs.pdf

Connie

What about Dementia?

Eva

i'll look up that one now for you

Connie

I am demented after all :P

Eva

that you are... but clinically demented is another story.

http://www.yourlifechoices.com.au/news/ten-early-signs-of-dementia?page=single

nope, you're safe, dont think you have dementia either.

Connie

Huh. Misplacing things, mood swings, changes in personality, apathy, not knowing the day of the week, memory loss

nice

I dont have it now but I'll bet good money I will when I'm older

Eva

yeah but the way its written is severe.

Connie

I won't be though because I'll probably foget :P

bet*

Eva

hahaha

here are 10 signs that you dont have it, according to this list.

http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Dementia_diagnosis_and_early_signs

1. you remember everything that you forget, eventually. people with dementia do not.

2. you are able to complete a task, or at least come back to if after being distracted. at least you dont go building a house or cooking a meal and leave it and forget that you started it. there would be homeless and hungry people living with you otherwise ;)

Connie

Strokes, depression, alcoholism, infections, hormone disorders, nutritional deficiencies and brain tumours can all cause dementia-like symptoms. 

well I'm not having a stroke and I really hope I don't have a tumour but the rest makes sense

 Eva

3. you have zero problems with language. you are very easy to understand.

4. i've not seen you disoriented, other than struggling to remember something from a period of your life where everything was fuzzy thanks to the things you were consuming.

5. you have no problem with judgement, of places, of people, of time and distance. you are very well prepared and not phased by being in a new situation with new places, people, time or distance.

6. you can think very well abstractly. its the whole numbers thing. and the universe is abstract and you freakin love the universe!

7. everyone misplaces things. its normal. my mother looks for the glasses that are on her head. i look for my phone which is in my hand. as long as you're not putting your shampoo and conditioner in the washing machine, or looking for the grass fertiliser in the pantry, i think you'll be right.

8. everyone is sad or moody or something or other. but you dont plot to kill someone after singing sunshine and lollipops. its just not you. 

Connie

^ I plot that all the time just quietly.

Eva

9. moods change, personality doesnt. you can change aspects of the way that you think but i dont think any one can change their in herent personality... like, you're funny. i dont think you could be unfunny to save your life. and you're compassionate about people... i dont think you would ever deep down not give a rats about anything important to you.

deep down, kinda thought that, but for the purpose of this exercise I will erase that comment from the record ;)

10. its normal to not like obligatory things.
but when you dont want to listen to music, or read books, or write in your moleskin book, or mess on buzzfeed, or watch your favourite movies, or when your favourite movies and music are things you cannot stand anymore, that is the time to be worried. I dont believe you will ever be in danger of this, no matter how many times you forget that you turned on the light, or how many times you quietly plot after singing about sunshine.

so there you are. 10 reasons why you are not at risk of losing your mind :D

Connie

You have made me laugh through this whole thing, that's fantastic.

 Eva

i am so glad :)

Connie

What a perfect 10 reasons I'm not losing my mind, more than I already have of course!

Eva

hahaha

i think i should turn this into a blog post.

Connie

This whole conversation is going on mine lol

, Eva

ode to connie, who is not losing her mind (but plotting your death as i write this)

The Ex.

Last night, as I was driving home, this song came on the radio:

"Somebody That I Used To Know"

(feat. Kimbra)

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

Every single time I hear this song, I am reminded of my ex boyfriend (generally the purpose of the song!)

It sums it up pretty perfectly.

I haven't been able to bring myself to write much about him, if at all. The few entries in my physical journal span back to the first few months when we first broke up, and just how much I missed him. These days, it's different.

There were certainly some amazing times together. I experienced new things with him, we had adventures, my life changed quite dramatically while we were a couple. I can't deny the happy times or make them less than what they were. He did make me very happy for some parts.

For the most part though, he hurt me. He hurt my heart, my mind, my spirit, who I am as a person.

I still don't know why I stayed for as long as I did. I guess it was because I was deeply in love, I thought he was it for me. I felt so strongly that I fought and fought, no matter what he did, to make it work. In any other relationship I've had that even got a quarter to that point, I'd walk away. If it got that hard, I fucked them off with a smile and a wave. This was my lesson to learn. And learn I did.

The mental abuse, emotional abuse, the way he'd make me feel like I was stupid, insecure, that I was paranoid and irrational, that everything was my fault and I was just ridiculous. Comparing me to ex girlfriends, that I never measured up, that I wasn't good enough to please him, that I was just lacking.

I look back and I shake my head at it all.

I am an exceptionally strong woman. Physically, mentally, emotionally. He has been the only one that was able to test all 3 levels.

It was a lesson. An invaluable lesson.

Now I know the truth, I remember it, I have taken it back onto myself.

The son of a bitch was lucky to have had me.

I will never regret what we had, but I certainly will never go back to that again.

It sums it up perfectly:

"Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know"

Well, he couldn't, so I did.

He has been let go, to never return.

Thank fuck for that!

Tuesdays with Morrie

It's funny.
I always end up thinking about this on a Tuesday.
As a reminder to myself of what's really important in life.
Some things, when you read them, change you. Morph you. Open you up to another way of thinking, feeling, knowing.
This book did exactly that for me.

'Tuesdays with Morrie' is a non-fiction book written by Mitch Albom that recounts the time he spent with his 78 year old sociology professor who was dying. The book goes on to talk about the conversations they had and let me tell you, if I could have these conversations everyday for the rest of my life, it would be blissful.

I found a few of the quotes and wanted to list them below, to share, to remember.

If you get a chance, please read this book. It's just beautiful.

• "Do the kinds of things that come from the heart. When you do, you won’t be dissatisfied, you won’t be envious, you won’t be longing for somebody else’s things. On the contrary, you’ll be overwhelmed with what comes back."
• "You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that haven't found meaning. Because if you’ve find meaning in your life, you don’t want to go back. You want to go forward."
• "When you learn how to die, you learn how to live."
• "Death ends a life, not a relationship."
• "The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."
• "Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling."
• "Death: the only true emotion felt in an apathetic world"
• "Love wins. Love always wins."
• "As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed as ignorant as you were at twenty-two, you'd always be twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it."
• "Love each other or perish."
• "Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone."
• "Don't hang on too long, but don't let go too soon."
• "Without love, we are birds with broken wings."
• "Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?"
• "If the culture doesn't work, don't buy it."
• "If we can remember the feeling of love we once had, we can die without ever going away."
• "What is it about silence that makes people uneasy?"
• "So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."
• "When you're in bed, you're dead."

Music Flashback!

Does anybody remember this song?

Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be  it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by  scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable  than my own meandering  experience…

I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not  understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and  recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before  you and how fabulous you really looked….

You’re not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as  effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing  bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that  never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank tatements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…

even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard;

live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

When I was in high school it was one of my absolute favourites to listen to. I know the words off by heart and the other day when the lovely Eva sent me this image, it instantly popped back into my head and made itself at home again.

 

                                Bits of Truth

It really is such a unique song and I think that everyone should listen to it, make their friends listen to it, and especially make their kids listen to it.

It'll make you feel better. <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ

Top 5 Songs

Music.

Music is what feelings sound like.

Music sooths my soul.

Music makes me so very happy.

It's hard to narrow down just a Top 5 when it comes to music (with a lot of things really), even now I find songs that I would throw on the list instead, but sometimes you just need to pick something and stick with it!

These songs below, they all have a deeper meaning for me. All of them - from the lyrics, the beat, the vibe and feeling they give me - this is what makes these songs so important to me.
Top 5 Songs

• 'Heaven Coming Down' by The Tea Party

(I cannot remember where or how I found this song, it's been years and years that I've known and loved it. This is the song I would specify as my favourite if I ever went on one of those game shows where you go with a partner and they need to know things about you.)

 

With nothing to do you'd waste away

Obscure in exile

They've witnessed the times

You've gone astray

Whose fault? now you're thinking...

Theres's nothing to prove

A message from the crowd

To the shore...

And it feels now

Just like heaven's coming down

Your soul shakes free

As its conscience hits the ground

So strange are the ways,

They all have changed

Still life it stays the same

A break from the past

Could make it last

Maybe just a little longer

There's nothing to prove

A message from the crowd

To the shore...

You surrender

Love under will

Rest assured you're adored

And it feels now

Just lie heaven's coming down

Your soul shakes free

As its conscience hits the ground

These signs, this fate

Takes a path you didn't choose

Stay Strong, Keep Faith

There is a change that's

Coming through

Hold on my love

Hold on...

• 'Don't You Forget About Me' by Simple Minds

(I first heard this song when I first watched 'The Breakfast Club' and I fell instantly in love with it. I could listen to this song every day for the rest of my life and never get sick of it.)

Hey, hey, hey, hey Ooh, oh

Won't you come see about me?

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts

Giving me everything inside and out

And love's strange so real in the dark

Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart

When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

Will you stand above me?

Look my way, never love me

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down

Will you recognize me?

Call my name or walk on by

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey Ooh, oh

Don't you try to pretend

It's my feeling, we'll win in the end

I won't harm you or touch your defenses

Vanity and security

Don't you forget about me

I'll be alone, dancing, you know it baby

Going to take you apart

I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't you forget about me

Don't, don't, don't, don't

Don't you forget about me

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

When you walk away

Or will you walk away?

Will you walk on by?

Come on, call my name

Will you call my name?

I say, la la la

When you walk on by

And you call my name

• 'I've Got to Break Free' by Queen

(Queen are my favourite band. I know every song off by heart and will belt them out with no hesitation. This one is one of my favourites of theirs, I've always felt connected to this song because I've always wanted to break free.)

I want to break free
I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
You're so self-satisfied I don't need you
I got to break free
God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen in love
I've fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it's for real
I've fallen in love, yeah
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love

It's strange but it's true (hey yea)
I can't get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh how I want to be free baby
Oh how I want to be free
Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I can't get used to living without, living without, living without you
by my side
I don't want to live alone, hey
God knows got to make it on my own
So baby can't you see
I've got to break free

I've got to break free
I want to break free, yeah

I want, I want, I want, I want to break free …

• 'Learning to Fly' by Pink Floyd

(I've listened to Pink Floyd for a very long time but there's this particular memory that will always stick with me. It was November 2003, pretty much around this time, and I had just left school, just turned 17 and was working full time for my brother. It was Melbourne Cup day so he sent me home early and I had time to kill so I went into this little hole in the wall shop on George St in the city, where they sold books and CD's etc. I picked up the Pink Floyd Album "Pulse" and went home and listened to it for hours. It was my first paycheck from a proper full time job outside of school and it was the first thing I brought. Pink Floyd will always hold a place in my heart.

Plus, I have always wanted to get "Earth-Bound Misfit" tattooed on me.)

Into the distance, a ribbon of black
Stretched to the point of no turning back
A flight of fancy on a windswept field
Standing alone my senses reeled
A fatal attraction is holding me fast,
How can I escape this irresistible grasp?

Can't keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted, just an earth-bound misfit, I

Ice is forming on the tips of my wings
Unheeded warnings, I thought, I thought of everything
No navigator to find my way home
Unladened, empty and turned to stone
A soul in tension -- that's learning to fly
Condition grounded but determined to try

Can't keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

Above the planet on a wing and a prayer,
My grubby halo, a vapour trail in the empty air,
Across the clouds I see my shadow fly
Out of the corner of my watering eye
A dream unthreatened by the morning light
Could blow this soul right through the roof of the night

There's no sensation to compare with this
Suspended animation, a state of bliss

Can't keep my mind from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

• 'Purple Rain' by Prince/'Kiss From a Rose' by Seal

(I've always been a big Prince fan and generally love all the songs equally but the lyrics to this one have always struck a cord with me.)

'Purple Rain' by Prince

I never meant to cause you any sorrow.
I never meant to cause you any pain.
I only wanted to one time see you laughing.
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain.

Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.

I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain.

I never wanted to be your weekend lover.
I only wanted to be some kind of friend.
Baby I could never steal you from another.
It's such a shame our friendship had to end.

Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.

I only wanted to see you underneath the purple rain.

Honey I know, I know, I know times are changing.
It's time we all reach out for something new,
That means you too.
You say you want a leader,
But you can't seem to make up your mind.
I think you better close it,
And let me guide you to the purple rain.

Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.

If you know what I'm singing about up here.
C'mon raise your hand.

Purple rain, purple rain.

I only want to see you, only want to see you.

(I first heard this song when I watched Batman - I LOVE Batman! - and I've always really really liked it. For a long time I wanted this song to be my wedding's first dance song, it might still be :} )

'Kiss From a Rose' by Seal

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.